Caroline in the Delta

Closing the Teach For America Blogging Gap
Jul 15 2010

Recently

Because I have a lesson plan that must be finished in the next hour and thirty-one minutes that I have yet to begin, I will consolidate the past few days:

1) My computer had a semi-meltdown in which the keyboard and mouse refused to continue functioning. Wal-Mart (grimace) saved me, as I purchased a USB keyboard and mouse and have been toting them around.
2) Behavioral management. Last week and the week before I was sick, miserable, and not exactly a good teacher. Here we are rated as Novice, Beginning Proficiency, Advanced Proficiency. I am a consistent “Novice Plus!” because I slack on details. It continues. This week, however, I seemed to have upped my ability and am closer to BP, but not quite there.
3) My interpersonal relationships are growing here. I find myself surrounded with beautiful Christian woman. Thanks, God! There are so many wonderful people here. I force myself to open up to friends and family, when I feel I need to cry I cry, and when I realize I am being destructive I stop. It sounds simple but it’s not.
4) Not sure if there is a four. I am still functioning, isn’t that enough?

I love my kids. Tomorrow is my last real day working with them. Friday’s a field trip. One student can’t go because of behavior, and when we tell him his heart is going to break. Instead of working on tracking grades and lesson planning tonight I had a drink with two ’09 Dumas people and Ben (fellow ’10 Dumas person). It was worth it. I got to see my CS (curriculum specialist) sing karaoke, calmed my nerves, and hung out with the people that will soon be my family.

Institute is over in two days. I cannot believe I have made it this far. I can. But I can’t. I never believed people when they said it was the hardest thing they have ever done but honestly, now I do.

One Response

  1. Cindy

    4) Still caring for others, still opening yourself to new experiences and people, no matter hos frightening that is, still wanting to do more, better.

    More than enough . . . you set the standard high! Keep going, Caro!

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